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8:38pm: If anybody even lurks this anymore.....
IM MAKING A NEW JOURNAL.
This one has too many bullshit memories, haha.

Im starting over fresh so if you wanna be added, add me on over here
-----> raynedayze 

1:25am: Texas was way more than amazing.
Im not going to update about it cause i wouldnt know where to begin.
I'll just say that his family was more accepting and loving than i could have ever imagined.
Hopefully someday i'll be a part of that family!<3
As wierd as it sounds, i miss Matt already.
You'd think after being stuck with him for a week it'd be nice to have a break... But Eh.
I rather have him with me.
It was a great feeling to know i had a place next to him each night.

And i am officially now, 18. Nothing different. Booo.

12:32am:

4:06pm: Things are good right now=]
I Bought a Hookah and it is adorable. I cannot wait to break it in this weekend.
Pictures later for suree.

Also, 9 months with my baby on saturdayy<33

10:58pm: Mm just a quick update cause i have better shit to do.

Matt left last sunday and its been so sad without him:( He'll be home this sunday, and it couldnt be sooner. Seperation anxiety like a bitch. =/

The new job is okay. I dont know yet=/ Im still getting use to it. I come home with a good 40 bucks everynight tho. Thats nice.

I got my nails done for the first time a few days ago. I didnt think id like them but i do. And Matt couldnt get enough of them. He squirms like a worm when i tickle him=]

Today was Thanks Giving blahblahh ate a lot of really good food and went to my Grandparents house. This girl that was there is a manager at Village In, a resturant that just opened close to home. She's going to try to get me a job there=]

The other day after school Amanda and i went to Chipotle<3 and to Bookmans. We looked at all of the sex books and i got 2 of them. One is all about giving head, and the other is like crazy hot positions and what not. Matt is in for a treat when he gets home. PLUS i got new underwear. ;)

10:59pm: Read it; And really think about it.
" I hope you learn humility by being humiliated,and that you learn honesty by being cheated. I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you turn sixteen. And It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your dog put to sleep. I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in. I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother. & it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him. I hope you learn to appreciate life."

9:02pm:

1:18pm: Gosh today has been a good day already.=D
FIrst offf, My mom and sister left for flagstaff today=] for 3 wholeee days. whoo hoo. Then Matthew woke my ass up at like 8:45. I got kinda ready and went to his house. We watched tv and just cuddled. Hott sex. Psh what am i talking about when is it NOT hott. I mean damn. We both have these SLAMMIN' bodies. =D Well. Minus fat lard. Anyways. And then we went to Yokohama LAME ASS rice bowl and got food. It was really shitty and matt tried to get us a refund, but no luck. The lady was a straight up bitch!

Now matt and i both have to go to work:( Till like 9. Fuck that!

Oh ps. This morning while matt and i were layin in his bed, he was really frisky and he asked me to KISS HIS PEEPEE. Nothing sexy or anything.. Not hey babe, drop some knowledge. but HEY KISS MY PEEPEE! Bahaha. What a freak i love him!

kbye!

7:58pm: I've realized.... and

12:35am: Ughh today is seems like its 29389 years.
I didnt go to first today, cause i went to Alltel hoping they could fix my phone. They said there is water damage and that i owe 50 dollers. Or keep the broken phone. So thats gonna have to be fixed:( Then i got a shitty pay check. And idk.  Oh well... No more school for 2 weeks. Thank god, i dont think i could handle much more. Aside from that, I love my stuco group<33 Were finally like getting closer. Matthew DID end up taging along with me all day. I loved every minute! First he came to my school. Then he dropped his car off at his house, and we went to KFC cause im a fatty. Ate there, came home. Sex and stuff? And then got readyish and went to my school. Went to the football game for  a little bit. Matt pushed a freshman pretty hard. Bahhaah. He deserved it! Mmm went over a decorated for the dance. Matt was sucking helium and talking like a crazy. =] Then we had the dance. It was a good turn out, and we made good money, im sure. And it was good to grinding on my boo a  little bit, even tho i am HORRIBLE and we just get fiesty about it. :( Mmm but now im home and ready to pass the fuck out!

Tomorrow is going to be a good dayyy:)
Shoot, what am i talking about? The next two weeks are going to be good days!

11:42pm: MiniKidVicious17: Hahah I always like dood if Travis and Shanna break up true love doesnt exisit. And then they did, and chels and me were like well now all we have is Matt and Rayne. Hahah So keep strong guys!

I just want to say that i think that was completley adorable. Its nice to finally hear someone supporting Matt and I. I love you sam! Thank you for being such a sweetheart:)

Oh and to add to this--- We had yet another great night, following last night. We got to smoke Hookah ((Matts first time awwww)) And we just got to spend time together all day. <3

10:54pm: Thought id post some pics.

11:50pm: Mayyunn.
Fuck everyone.

Im tired of everybody!
With the exception of matt and my family, i couldnt give a shit about anyone anymore.

Everyone at empire. Fuck off. Especially you Mr. Gypton! OH! and mrs gypton too! Everyone at cienega? FUCK YOU even more! Fuck everyone at McDonalds and everyone everywhere else.

People are straight up annoying.

Im seriously SO tired of everyone in tucson. fuck off.
There is so much bullshit going on. & i really cant stand anyone anymore.
all the drama. ALL the people. EVERYONE matt goes around. The lies and just the SHIT! IM SO DONE!

As soon as a graduate i am leaving tucson. I want to start off in a completley different place where all i know is Matt.

9:27am: I got my licence on thursday. & a Car on Friday=]
We were suppose to go get insurance. My mom, matt and i.
& Then she goes were not taking the truck and im like huh?
And she throws me a Key and shes like heres YOUR car.
And points down the street. And theres this cute little lexus.
Its a 91 & idk what the name is. I just know lexus. =]


Ahhh! Yay. I get it registered and what not on monday.

2:01am: A pet peve i noticed today....
Girls- If you are lucky enough to get a promise ring from your boyfriend... wear it on the RIGHT FUCKING HAND. Left is engagment. RIGHT is for your promise ring.

Dumb bitches; shouldnt get to wear them if you missuse them.
Hahaha. idk why this is getting to me so bad! AH!!111

today/night was amazing. Matthew, youre amazing. =]

12:26am: So today was the last day of summer.
& Possibly one of the WORST days of summer. =/

Tomorrow is the first day of my senior year, tho.
... Sorry i keep saying it guys. Just hasnt hit me yet. =0


As hard as things get sometimes and as much as i just want to quit at times.. I really do love Matt. He is worth it all. Ive never put so much into something. Cared so much. Loved as much. Given so much. To anything. And i dont think i ever will. I could NEVER love anyone the way i love him. I just cant even explain.. and even if i tried you couldnt begin to understand. No one ever will, but i couldnt care less.


And for those of you who have the smallest doubt... Fuck you. I seriously dont care. Talk shit and say things wont work out. I have NO problem proving you wrong=]

12:21pm: i love my baby.. yepyep i love my boyyy
Sorry i dont update. I just really have NOTHING to update on.

Kirk is back. I now have that little piece of my heart back that he took when we stopped talking. :]
Now except for the tiny part that ty took to oregon. My heart is almost whole. Lololol.

My summer is officially over. Tomorrow i have to wake up at like 6 and teach a bunch of annoying freshman eachothers names. Go link crew.

& Then the next day I have to wake up at like 6 again and work School registartion from 7:30-5. and then rush to work till 10. cute.

the NEXT day is school. Shit. At least it starts on friday. I like that idea. That means you can get your shit together over the weekend.

I love my boyfriend. =]

1:23am: Hi. BTW- I dont update cause things are shit. =] kthxbye.

1:39am: PICTURES!
These are from the post where you asked me to take pictures in my house and what not...
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& These are just a bunch ive taken latley.
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2:13am: So im reading my friends page. Theres a few of you that have boyfreinds that you barley ever hang out with. Wtf is that. Like only on weekends till 7 pm or something. I see my Babe basically all day every day till like 2 am. Anytime i can. And its still not enough. =]

Sucks for you guys. Bahaha.

12:43am:

7:21pm: I'll give you a real update soon. Excuse my lazyness.
Leave your name and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.

11:56pm:

12:11am: 15 Facts

11:20pm: How did a lame ass like me...